This is the first holiday season without my dad and I am a bit worried about my mom, but we live too far apart to sees act other regularly (although we do talk a few times a week - it is not the same as speaking with my dad) and the lack of sex is just frustrating. I have decided to have a serious sit down with The Wife after the new year as I do not want to go another year like this. I guess I can see a couple of possible endings for this discussion ...
1 - She agrees that we have a problem and wants to solve it in some way proactively to re-start OUR sex life

2 - She admits that she does not want sex any more and agrees that I can have a 'girlfriend' (Highly unlikely I would think)

3 - We agree to officially separate / divorce (unlikely for her to agree to)

4 - Hmmmm Maybe there are other options that I am not thinking about, and I am sure there are many.

I hope everyone has a good New Year, if I do not check in before then.
Stay Safe and Stay Sexxy!

It would seem that the only one coming around here is Santa. Mentioned a few times to The Wife yesterday that sex would be nice especially for the holiday and she pretty much ignored me. The Ex is wanting to fuck, but cannot get away from the kid so that is out until after the new year and kids are back in school. Meanwhile, I am in 'my' room with my NN friends.
Going to a christmas day pancake breakfast with the Grandkids and then to take a second look at a potential food truck.
Hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas Day with family and friends. (oh, and if any ladies are near me, I would love to make your holiday more fun)

So it has now been almost 12 weeks since The Wife and I had sex and it was 6 weeks the last 'break'. Not really expecting anything before the end of the year, but I certainly would not turn it down. Been looking on CL but, honestly, that makes me quite nervous - diseases and crazy ladies and all that.

Last night I asked The Wife what she wanted for dinner and her response was 'what do you want' I responded that her laying on the bed naked would be good for me and she just laughed and said that is not dinner. My response was that it would be good enough as dinner for me! She said 'well, let me color my hair and the we can do that'. Needless to say, it did not happen. Next thing I know, she is wrapping holiday gifts and I heat up her leftovers and a bowl of soup for myself. We watched TV for a while and then went to bed - separately -. She never did color her hair.

Oh well, I hope everyone has a happy CHristmas / Hanukah / Kwanza / Whatever it is you celebrate. We have Hanukah dinner with family (about 20 total) tonight and I have a couple of catering gigs today so it will be busy.

Well, it dawned on me over the weekend that The Wife is being quite passive aggressive about not having sex. She makes sure that what was formerly 'my' side of the bed pretty much always has 'stuff' on it so that even if I wanted to sleep with her, there is no place for me. I am not sure, actually do not think, that it is purposeful, but it is passive aggressive nonetheless. We are now going on 4 months since we last had sex and that is pretty sorry. I am somewhat hopeful that with her now having left her job that she will feel better and perhaps want sex but I am not getting my hopes up.

Well, actually yesterday is when this starts.
I spoke with The ex yesterday and she wanted to come over today for 'breakfast' with her as the main course. I had an early meeting and she knew that but said she would manage her schedule so when I got up this morning I popped on NN but did not jerk off as she prefers a larger load and I want her happy. Finally spoke with her as I was leaving my meeting and she could no longer manage her time to meet me so I came home and perved and jerked off. Would really have preferred to fuck her, but oh well.

So The Wife has now been back home for 2 weeks (as of tonight) and she is officially quitting her job. This is another thing that she ways will remove stress and improve our (non existent) sex life. Well, we will see. This Friday is her last day at the current job and she already has her first interview set up. So if she is more relaxed, perhaps there will be sex this weekend. I am not about to hold my breath, but it sure would be a nice surprise.

The Ex came over this afternoon as she had promised and pretty much just headed straight up to my room. She grabbed a washcloth and gave herself a thorough wipe down and lay down in bed. I joined her and we held each other as I began to suck on her tits and lightly finger her ass and pussy. She moved me from one tit to the other and back a few times. After a bit of this, she, as usual, pushed me down to eat her delicious pussy during which I toyed with her nipples. This went on for about 10 minutes as she kept saying that she could cum immediately but enjoyed it so much that she did not want to. She finally let herself go and came with an amazing scream (even louder than usual) as usual as soon as she came she pulled me up to fuck her and I quickly entered her. I was actually a bit surprised at how wet she was - she is normally pretty moist, but this time and last she was pretty much dripping. I love it! I fucked her as hard as I could which is what she has come to enjoy and encourage as she came a second time and shortly after that I pulled out and came on her.
Now the funny / odd part ... She actually has a date tonight with a new fellow. I sort of think she gets hot thinking about the date and figures that if we fuck she will not be so horny during the date and therefore will be better able to control her hormones and not sleep with the fellow she is going out with as she has done this before with me. Well, that is fine with me, but it really would be good for her to meet a 'good' person and get into a conventional, positive relationship even if it meant the end of our sex life.

So The Wife has now been back for 6 1/2 days and absolutely no affection. From the way she was talking when we spoke while she was traveling, I really was expecting that she would be affectionate to me, perhaps even suggesting sexual activity, but NO, not a peep. To be fair, she has been a bit under the weather, but as much as she claimed to be missing me, I was really expecting 'something' - and I have been strongly hinting.
Was driving last night for UBER and got rear ended which simply pisses me off, that is my new Jeep, Damnit!
Texted The Ex this morning is she wanted breakfast (thinking sex) and she said she would be by to have oatmeal. When she got here, I suggested a 'quickie' and she said she had actually been thinking the same thing but would have to wait since she had to get to work. She said that usually, she does not really 'get started' till we are in bed or in the tub, but she woke up 'ready' and wishes we had time today. Assuming that The Wife actually goes back to work tomorrow, perhaps we will manage to fuck then.
Well, that has been my Monday. Hope everyone made it through the holiday safe and sound.

Well, The Wife is back from her trip and things are instantly back to normal. She claims to be glad to be home (which I believe) but she shows no affection to me. When I said I was going to drive for UBER last night or I could stay home and ravish her she said driving sounded like a good idea. Yep, that is passion - NOT. Later I suggested that I might come home earlier so we could spend some time together and she was like whatever. Oh, well, I really did not expect anything else. Add to that that I had oral surgery on Monday and I was really hoping for some loving (and she had sort of promised some over the phone) but oh, well.

Well, last night The Ex came over (as usual when The Wife has been gone) and quite late put her kid to sleep. Finally, about 11:30 we went out to the hot tub to relax. Only problem was that I had just adjusted the chemicals and the chlorine was a bit strong.
Anyway, we sat looking up at the stars and having a relaxing time sharing a glass of wine. While we were sitting, I was stroking her body, playing with the Right nipple and occasionally slipping my hand down to her pussy. After about 30 minutes, she turned and I could not help myself as I bent down to suck on her nipple which was like turning on a switch with her. I sucked on one then the other for a few minutes before she moved herself so I could rub my dick around her pussy while continuing to suck on her tits. Unfortunately, I am taller than her and fucking while still sucking on her tits was difficult (I guess I am not a teenager anymore) After a bit she got frustrated and we got out and moved up to my bed where I started sucking on her nipples again but she was impatient and requested that I move south, I moved down to start sucking on her pussy and she was absolutely DRIPPING! I ate her for about 10 minutes until her body stiffened as she came and then moved up to fuck her. I had already put on a condom so there was no delay, she felt wonderful, but I knew that I would not cum with the condom on. I pulled out and said 'don't worry I will not cum in you' and started back to fuck her good for a few minuted before I pulled out and came on her stomach.
We lay in bed for a few minutes (by this time is was about 1:00 AM and I got her to go down to her kid she there would not be a question of where she had slept.
It is always a bit of a question if things are going to be as planned with her, but it is always worth it.

Well, It is Friday night and it has been almost 2 weeks since The Wife went on her vacation. The Ex has been hanging around but we only fucked one time because she has been 'fluish'. Well, tonight she said to heat up , the hot tub and when her kid is asleep perhaps we will get in the hot tub and fool around which will lead to fucking for sure. I would be so happy if we could fuck 2 or 3 times before The Wife returns but that may be asking too much.
We will see, she DOES greatly enjoy sex with me and if she feels well, hopefully we can get in a few good fucks before things change. Meanwhile, The Wife is complaining about how much she misses me but I doubt that she will express that 'love' in a sexual way on her return.