Kids in particular. They all seem to be born with the same adorable, kissable lil button nose.
Yesterday I noticed my sons nose has changed. He is growing into what will be the features he will live with for the rest of his life.
This was a moment I somehow didn't observe with my daughter.
I am mouring slightly the passage of childhood but at the same time looking forward to seeing the man he will become.
Sappy,
ju

Lunches made, coffee made, sitter arranged, miscellaneous necessary shit ready to grab at the crack of dawn.



Enough music to keep me entertained to hawaii and back for the 20 min bus ride, check. Bus fare, check. Paper and pen incase I need to write something down, check. Phone in case the kids/schools need to get a hold of me, check. (Phone may also be used in case of extreme boredom to text random ppl )

I also have just about everyting ready for my daughters 16th birthday tomorrow.

Ah a day to myself was just what I needed

Wish me luck!
ju

Where is your cell phone? - table
Your significant other? - away
Your hair? – messy
Your mother? - rock
Your father? - information
Your favourite thing? - camping
Your dream last night? - farm
Your favourite drink? - Beer
Your goal? - Happiness
What room are you in? - kitchen
Your hobby? - camping
Your fear? - Alone
Where do you want to be in 6 years? - comfortable
Where were you last night? - Home
Something that you aren't? - Rich
Muffins? - ok
Wish list item? - peace
Where you grew up? - ontario
Last thing you did? - coffee
What are you wearing? - sweats
TV? - sigh
Your pets? - gerbils
Friends? - dependable
Without friends? - Alone
Your life? - unsatisfactory
Your mood? - Okay
Missing someone? - Yes
Your car? - none
Something you're not wearin? - undies
Your favourite store? - beer
Your favourite colour? - green
When is the last time you laughed? - yesterday
Last time you cried? - recently
Who will resend this? - dunno
Where do you go to over and over? - grocery
Five people who email me regularly? – irrgegular
My favourite place to eat? - outdoors
Favourite place I'd like to be at right now? - camping
Four people I think will respond? - Dunno

hated new years and kept it as low key as possible again this year. Ron came over, we shot the shit, had a few beers and made chinese food.
All was good untill today when I couldn't leave the tree up a moment longer. It was becoming a fire hazzard. The same ol shitty feelings surfaced again. I thought I had fought it off this year.
New years has never been Jan 1 for me, that is a time of endings, a time of death, the time my part of the world gets ready to endure the worst possible weather. My mental state reflects that. Everything is cold, dark and dead.
Spring will come and be followed closely by summer and then before I know it MY new years will be here. The day after labour day a real new beginning!
In the mean time I am going to wallow, blame it on SAD.
I do, but this too shall pass.
Melancholy for now,
ju

I spent a great evening with a good friend.
It really doesn't matter what time it is or what day it is as long as you are living life to it's fullest.
Happy New Year all of you,
ju

It has been years since I have done anything for new years and the truth is I don't miss it. New Years eve has always been one of the biggest let downs I can imagine. This year Ron and I had planned on getting together and making chinese. Nothing big but something anyway.
I just got a call and have accepted an invite to a pre new years party tomorrow. Gonna get together with some friends I haven't seen since the summer. It will be very relaxed just a bunch of us getting together, having a few beers and shooting the shit. No pressure to make resolutions and whine about the past year. I am looking forward to it!

Many of you have heard me talk about my rent a puppy. He is my daughters friends dog that I love to death he is so damn cute.
He arrived today wearing his lil santa coat cause he had just had a bath and was keeping warm. I call him my lap warmer cause that is usually where he sits.



awwwwwwwww.
He is here for cuddles till Thursday

And finally for krick.
I hate my hands, always have but they have served their purpose. They have done much work and have nurtured 2 children.



For better or worse there are my fat fingers! The things I do for NNers, sheesh!

Happy and prosperous New Year to you all,
ju

Every once in a while it seems to surface. Perhaps it is me just being overly sensitive to it. I normally have my rhino skin firmly in tact but every now and again I guess it slips or perhaps the backlash becomes more prominent.
I have no clue which. I am going to rant a bit from MY perspective, and mine only. I can not and will not speak for others.
First off I would like to know why so many of you want to be mods? That is well and truely beyond me. It is not a fun job nor does it make you "popular" quite the opposite in fact. Everyone wants you to be on their side because they have been here etc, never mind overall fairness. Mind boggling to say the least.
What many of you fail to understand is our hands are tied. We can't deal with issues the way you would like, we are bound by rules even more so than the standard members of the site. What we can and cannot do is very strictly laid out by admin.
A good mod is not going to play favourites.
I am going to work within the parameters I have been given and hopefully keep the peace.
Just a tad frustrated,
ju

jl has been doing her best to piss me off and make me jealous, the bitch that she is.
But I have to admit as much as I wish I was going with her or in her place I really am thrilled she is getting to do someting I have wanted to for ages. My time will come. It has come and gone with many.
This huge planet we live on has gotten ever so much smaller with the invention of air travel and more recently with the internet.
Many of us live oh so far away but that does't stop us from being close.
Some of you I am dying to meet, some of you I will meet and some of you it will never be in the cards for us.
Take me with you when you meet each other, if in spirit only.
I will be smiling for you and waiting for my turn.
Only slightly green with envy,
ju

I got the damn knife stuck, and it didn't matter what the hell I did it wasn't coming out!



Luckily a friend was coming over and he rescued it. I was prepared to let it rot until I could retrieve the knife.

It was an early start but a really good day. Kids are exhausted now but both are thrilled with what Santa brought.
The months of planning and preparation are over. The knife has been retrieved from the evil root vegetable and now it is time for me to chill.
Tomorrow will be clean up day.
Mellow,
ju

Things will be busy for everyone today, me included.
I just want to take a moment to wish you all a very merry Christmas!!
Getting the inivitable last minute things done,
ju