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Saturday, October 3, 2009, 12:54:48 AM- hmmm interesting | ||||||
This has facinated me for a few years now. I have many friends here and for that I am grateful. What amuses me is the shock that I am met with when I show my sexual side verbally. I have pics and vids, some quite graphic so why is it a shock when I say what I want and like? Pondering, ju | ||||||
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Wednesday, September 30, 2009, 11:21:15 PM- I am still not | ||||||
100%. The cough and the snot are still hanging in. Dunno why I chose now other than the weather (and a bit of a bet with Ron) but I decided to try that excersise thang. I am noticing a bit of a diff already but I am not sure if it is the excersise itself or if it is because I am so tired at the end of the day I am too tired to get my daily quota of beer in. Prolly a combo of the two. If I can keep it up my goal is to look a lil better in a bathing suit by the time it gets too cold outside so that I can continue by swimming on a daily basis. Wish me luck, I am great at starting things but not good at following through. ju | ||||||
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Friday, September 25, 2009, 1:10:39 PM- Bleh | ||||||
I'm sick. Damn schools are germ factories. The kids have ever so generously shared with me. Haven't been able to stay up past 9:30 in 2 nights. I have too much to do today to be sick. ju | ||||||
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Thursday, September 24, 2009, 12:48:55 AM- A space filler | ||||||
A number of you have been asking about me. I am ok, so are the kids. Something came along that has pissed me off to no end. I am dealing with it and may discuss it at a later date but then again I may not. In the mean time here is a poem I grew up with, my grandfather used to recite it to me as a toddler. Ron reminded me of it tonight. As a child I thought it was funny as hell. Time changes perceptions. Enjoy, The Cremation of Sam McGee by Robert W. Service There are strange things done in the midnight sun By the men who moil for gold; The Arctic trails have their secret tales That would make your blood run cold; The Northern Lights have seen queer sights, But the queerest they ever did see Was that night on the marge of Lake Lebarge I cremated Sam McGee. Now Sam McGee was from Tennessee, where the cotton blooms and blows. Why he left his home in the South to roam ‘round the Pole, God only knows. He was always cold, but the land of gold seemed to hold him like a spell; Though he’d often say in his homely way that “he’d sooner live in hell.” On a Christmas Day we were mushing our way over the Dawson trail. Talk of your cold! through the parka’s fold it stabbed like a driven nail. If our eyes we’d close, then the lashes froze till sometimes we couldn’t see; It wasn’t much fun, but the only one to whimper was Sam McGee. And that very night, as we lay packed tight in our robes beneath the snow, And the dogs were fed, and the stars o’erhead were dancing heel and toe, He turned to me, and “Cap,” says he, “I’ll cash in this trip, I guess; And if I do, I’m asking that you won’t refuse my last request.” Well, he seemed so low that I couldn’t say no; then he says with a sort of moan: “It’s the cursed cold, and it’s got right hold till I’m chilled clean through to the bone. Yet ‘taint being dead—it’s my awful dread of the icy grave that pains; So I want you to swear that, foul or fair, you’ll cremate my last remains.” A pal’s last need is a thing to heed, so I swore I would not fail; And we started on at the streak of dawn; but God! he looked ghastly pale. He crouched on the sleigh, and he raved all day of his home in Tennessee; And before nightfall a corpse was all that was left of Sam McGee. There wasn’t a breath in that land of death, and I hurried, horror-driven, With a corpse half hid that I couldn’t get rid, because of a promise given; It was lashed to the sleigh, and it seemed to say: “You may tax your brawn and brains, But you promised true, and it’s up to you to cremate those last remains.” Now a promise made is a debt unpaid, and the trail has its own stern code. In the days to come, though my lips were dumb, in my heart how I cursed that load. In the long, long night, by the lone firelight, while the huskies, round in a ring, Howled out their woes to the homeless snows—O God! how I loathed the thing. And every day that quiet clay seemed to heavy and heavier grow; And on I went, though the dogs were spent and the grub was getting low; The trail was bad, and I felt half mad, but I swore I would not give in; And I’d often sing to the hateful thing, and it hearkened with a grin. Till I came to the marge of Lake Lebarge, and a derelict there lay; It was jammed in the ice, but I saw in a trice it was called the “Alice May.” And I looked at it, and I thought a bit, and I looked at my frozen chum; Then “Here,” said I, with a sudden cry, “is my cre-ma-tor-eum.” Some planks I tore from the cabin floor, and I lit the boiler fire; Some coal I found that was lying around, and I heaped the fuel higher; The flames just soared and the furnace roared—such a blaze you seldom see; Then I burrowed a hole in the glowing coal, and I stuffed in Sam McGee. Then I made a hike, for I didn’t like to hear him sizzle so; And the heavens scowled, and the huskies howled, and the wind began to blow. It was icy cold, but the hot sweat rolled down my cheeks, and I don’t know why; And the greasy smoke in an inky cloak went streaking down the sky. I do not know how long in the snow I wrestled with grisly fear; But the stars came out and they danced about ere again I ventured near; I was sick with dread, but I bravely said: “I’ll just take a peep inside. I guess he’s cooked, and it’s time I looked;” . . . then the door I opened wide. And there sat Sam, looking cool and calm, in the heart of the furnace roar; And he wore a smile you could see a mile, and he said: “Please close that door. It’s fine in here, but I greatly fear you’ll let in the cold and storm— Since I left Plumtree, down in Tennessee, it’s the first time I’ve been warm.” There are strange things done in the midnight sun By the men who moil for gold; The Arctic trails have their secret tales That would make your blood run cold; The Northern Lights have seen queer sights, But the queerest they ever did see Was that night on the marge of Lake Lebarge I cremated Sam McGee. | ||||||
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Sunday, September 20, 2009, 3:03:31 AM- Enough of the deep shit | ||||||
Time to get back to basics! My daughter and I made strawberry jam yesterday. Ron came over with a shit load of crab apples today and we made jelly. Man can not live on jelly alone so I made a sammich. It was yummy! The guitar is out the singing and strumming is going on. Content, ju | ||||||
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Friday, September 18, 2009, 1:51:08 AM- Who do you trust online? | ||||||
The million dollar question isn't it? I trust the people who over time have shown they have not only my own but their best interests at heart. They are the ones who will not risk all for a cheap thrill. I trust the people who will listen to my opinion even if it differs from their own and can still be civil if not friends. I trust the people who are able to step back and evaluate a situation rather than be caught up in the hype. I trust people to whom gossip is a pass time not a way of life. Trust is quite often a gut instinct with me. My gut has been wrong but very, very rarely. Who don't you trust? I do not trust the people who always have more opinions than rational thoughts. I do not trust people who gossip and believe it as gospel. I do not trust people who think life is all about them, they don't care about any but themselves. I do not trust people who are biased, they can't think outside the box and see what is really going on. What do you value? I value anyone I can ask a question of and get an honest down to earth answer. I value "face to face" such as it is online or one on one conversations when I know bullshit isn't an option to be considered. I value honesty. You and I may never want the same things but if you are honest with me I can respect that. I dislike attention whores, we all want to be noticed which is why we are here, no one individual is any better than the next. I dislike jealousy, we all have something to contribute. One person may love what we have another may not. I appreciate those who think and act. I do not appreciate those who just react. Assumptions piss me off. If you THINK you know what is going on confirming it with someone who KNOWS what is going on is preferable to speculation. This blog is aimed at no one and everyone. End of a mini rant, ju | ||||||
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Wednesday, September 16, 2009, 2:17:18 AM- Some things and people are just wayyyyyyyy cool | ||||||
Yesterday I was getting a new kitchen floor (nothing great I rent but new and clean) I had my daughter home because she had a Dr appt. We had a picnic breakfast in the livingroom while the floor was being done. We left before it was complete. About now you may need a lil back ground. My son has CP and is totally obsessed with machines of all sorts and the people who operate them. He has been watching the "lawn guys" for years along with the firefighters, police, paramedics and anyone else with cool equipment. Hours later my daughter and I came home, of course had to see what the floor looked like and noticed a baseball cap on the kitchen counter. My first thought was oh shit the floor guy forgot his hat. As I got closer I could see what it said on it. The "lawn guys" had been here that day as well and had given the superintendant a company hat to give to my son, he left it on the counter. My son is out there ALWAYS no matter what the weather, they have offered him a ride in the snow plow, shyly he has refused. They have taken to calling him lil buddy. I just about burst and couldn't wait for him to come home! I knew he was going to be over the moon! He has only mentioned how much he likes it 4 trillion times in the last 24 hrs and how proud he is to be an honourary member of the crew. It is only a baseball cap but it made his day and is something he will never get over, he is still in awe that they were thinking of him. When you give you most likely have no idea how much of an impact that gift can possibly make. Some gifts ARE priceless, ju | ||||||
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Wednesday, September 9, 2009, 1:19:10 AM- I have been thinking | ||||||
about the disparity between new people and the regulars. The common lament whether in chat or forum is about the so called "cliques" I really don't think the cliques exist. What has happened is an evolution. We all arrived on this site for the same reason. We are a bunch of pervs. What kind of perv you are determines your future experience on NN. There are those who are living out a fantasy, they really don't care one way or another if they ever interact, just keep the pics, comments and PMs coming. There are also the selfish ones, the ones who don't give a shit about any but themsleves. They came to be catered to and come hell or high water they are going to find someone to do it. Then there are the rest. They came to see naked bodys but somewhere along the way got caught up in ways they never expected. Perhaps a PM or 12 back and forth established a friendship. Maybe it was banter in the chat room or forum. What ever it may have been the fantasy turned into reality. Now they weren't just looking at bodies they were interacting with other human beings. NNers are very open people. The motivation for being here is basically the same if you think about it. The reaction to being here is the variable. For some fantasy WILL become reality for the vast majority for a number of reasons that wont happen. The common denominator is what happens once the horny has worn off, do you stay and interact or do you leave till the next time you are so ready to burst you cant stand it? Fantasy vs reality, facinating really, ju | ||||||
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Friday, September 4, 2009, 3:23:26 AM- Email tag lines | ||||||
Most of the time they are trite lil sayings that annoy me to no end. Today, in an email from a friend, was one I really do like. "Great minds talk about ideas, average minds about events, and small minds about people." Thinking I have a great, average, small mind and hoping to change that, ju | ||||||
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Wednesday, September 2, 2009, 12:59:59 AM- It really shouldn't mean anything | ||||||
but it does. I really am the same online and off but when a real life friend meets the "cyber" friends and they click (not clique) it really is a leap. So many people just don't understand chatting. I don't feel validated or justified I have never felt the need to prove anything to anyone. What I am feeling is happiness. Happy for open minds and willingness to stretch just a bit further than previously thought possible. Smiling, ju | ||||||
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