Friday night was a bit of a surprise. I purchased a new cologne that is supposed to be a pheromone enhancing cologne. It actually smells pretty good and The Wife liked it when I first put it on Thursday afternoon. I used it again Friday and when we went to bed, she was, for the first time in a while, the aggressor. Not in the way she was 25 years ago when we were first together, but she was definitely the one seeking me out. She blew me and I ate her for quite a while followed by fucking till she got a leg cramp (darn) but when she came back to bed, we basically did a 69 as I ate her and she jerked / sucked me till I came on her tits. She had not cum yet, so she got out her vibrator to finish herself off while I sucked on her tits. Overall a bit over one hour of activity and satisfying.

Obviously it has been a few weeks and I have been wondering when there would be another opportunity for us to fuck. Last night we had a decent dinner and after, The Wife asked if I wanted something sweet, well I reached out and sort of grabbed her tits - she sort of laughed and said 'anytime' - yeah, haha, I don't think so as I have herd that before. Anyway we went to bed a bit later and she made it clear she was 'in the mood' so we did end up fucking. I ate her to a loud orgasm and we fucked a bit although I did not cum. Not a bad evening, but we were both quite tired today due to not getting to sleep till after Midnight.

Last week we went on an RV trip and I expected to have a few opportunities to fuck and it seemed The Wife was pretty much in the mood as well. We left Friday and had a few hiccups getting out of town but made it to the campground just before dark and I knew that we were both tired so nothing would happen. Saturday we simply rested. Sunday we went out to a few attractions and had a great day but nothing happening in the bedroom. Monday morning, we headed out to our next destination which was, luckily, a smooth drive. We were meeting a great group of other RV owners who we have met with in the past. I somewhat expected to fuck Tuesday or Wednesday and at the encouragement of The Wife, took a 'blue pill'. Well, it ended up that three nights in a row, I took one and for different reasons, nothing happened - very frustrating for me, and according to her, frustrating for her. Finally on Saturday night (I did not take anything) we did fuck and it was pretty good although I could not stay as hard as I wanted. She sucked me after I was in her and said I tasted like strawberry, I pointed out that that was her and she was like, 'So I taste like strawberry?' I did not answer, as she tastes good but not really that sweet. Now back to my normal routine and working my ASS off for the next few weeks. It certainly has been a slow few weeks sexually, but we will see how things go.

We were sitting watching TV Friday and I decided to give The Wife a foot massage which I enjoy. Did this for about 90 minutes before we went to bed and she, while not aggressive in bed, made it clear she was quite willing. We ended up fucking and sucking for around 90 minutes and she came about 5 times as best as I could count. Unfortunately, I did not cum, but I still had fun and enjoyed the time.
Monday I have a prostate biopsy which is making me a bit nervous (not the procedure, just the possible concerns) so please keep me in your thoughts for a positive outcome. Next week we take a nice trip in our RV for about 10 days.

I have been meaning to post an update. Last weekend, The Wife got 'upset' again because I did not respond to her intentions which were not clear on (I can't remember) either Friday or Saturday night, Sunday morning, she was upset and we ended up having a decent fuck. I guess my problem is that I am not truly convinced that she really 'wants' sex, but, rather is encouraging it to keep me satisfied. I did not make any moves this past weekend and she seemed disappointed Sunday morning - well, I have said for as long as we have been married that if I am not in bed when she wakes up and she wants me, all she has to do is send a text and I will be there, but that has never happened. She DID seem a bit affectionate when we went to bed Sunday, but when I moved to continue, she closed her eyes and went to sleep so no go there. I am basically just not going to initiate anything and see where things go.

Well, it has been about a month since any activity and I was quite frustrated. On Saturday, we met our daughter to go shopping and just hang out a bit. When we were meeting her, The Wife mentioned she had reposted something on social media but did not tag me but I should read it. I read it and said it was a nice thought and I think i check most of the boxes in it and her response was sort of 'meh' which I took to be a negative or neutral reaction. This sort of threw me off as I really do try hard even if I do not get back what I think I deserve. When we got home, we watched TV for a while and since I knew her feet were sore from all the walking, I went and sat in front of her to massage her feet which went on for over an hour. She appeared to be enjoying this and I was hopeful (sort of) that it might lead to some sex so I went and swallowed one of my enhancer pills. Fast forward to the end of the 10PM news and we head to bed where she actually comes to bed without a top, lays down next to me and grabs my dick which is moving in the direction I hoped for. I move to stroke her tits and rub her back as best I can from the position I am in but get little response. Ultimately, We both turn away from each other and go to sleep, restless for me and I found out later for her as well.
I get up in the morning and I am PISSED! Just tired of being unsatisfied. When she finally gets up, I pretty much unload on her that I am done - ready for a Divorce and she is surprised. I point out to her how unfair things are to me and that I am continually frustrated by not only the 20 years of no sex but her lack of seeming to want to make things better including a statement by her to the effect of she has sex with me because I want it - sort of indicating that it is not a priority for her.
She Emphatically said this far from the truth and she will try much harder to be proactive with me. We ended up going back to bed and having sweaty sex for over 90 minutes where she orgasmed, I think, 5 or 6 times. Finally at the end I did cum in her. We discussed that we need to make more effort to do this more often.
While it was quite nice and enjoyable, I am not truly convinced that it will solve things. She made it clear that she does not want me to Divorce her, so she is aware that she needs to step up her efforts. I told her that I will not continue to always be the aggressor as she turned me down so continuously for 20 years.
I guess we will see how things go moving forward.
Yes, I know I have posted similar things in the past, but perhaps I got through to her this time.

Last weekend, Friday night, I drank a cup of my 'enhancing' coffee (keeps me quite hard) and when we went to bed, tried to get things started - the answer was, sorry, I took a sleeping pill so no go. I said maybe tomorrow night and she said ok, but was too tired at that point so I said, well I will come back to bed tomorrow morning around 8:30 or so. I did and we did have a decent fuck.
This weekend, she has shown no interest and now (Sunday morning) has Covid.
Oh well .....

Well it has been a few weeks and I was getting a bit frustrated. We went to Houston with our daughter and her kids (all sharing a Air BNB so no privacy really). They left and we had a few days to ourselves. First night alone, we were watching TV an I made a comment that she should strip but did not think anything of it and went to wash dishes and take a pill in case things got hot. Came back to find her with her tits out and her playing with her nipples - WOW - so hot! We ended up fucking on the sofa for a while and both came nicely. After a bit we went to bed and I mentioned that I wanted to suck on her tits again and she said anytime so I went for it. She said how horny she was and I moved to eat her which I did to a loud, screaming orgasm after which I fucked her for a few more minutes. Overall one of the best sex sessions she and I have ever had. Maybe this will be a turning point for her to be somewhat more of an instigator.

Well, nothing happened with The Wife this past weekend despite my gently trying. The Ex and I have been talking about hooking up, but it has not happened until today - she came over for us to get organized for a big event this evening and we ended up in bed where I sucked on her tits and ate her to a VERY loud orgasm. I tried to fuck her, but, despite my 'little blue pills' I could not keep it up, I think I was just too distracted by work which sucks. Overall, it was a nice experience. Truly does not need to be a regular thing with her as overall things are pretty decent with The Wife these days. When we went to bed last night - much later than usual - we were cuddling as we usually do these days and she turned to sleep on her side and specifically requested that I spoon her which was very nice of her to ask.

We went to bed Saturday night, perhaps a bit later than usual and things did get started. She was quite 'energetic' about giving me head and, despite me trying to pleasure her, she wanted to get me to cum that way. which she did. Of course, then I had to get her a towel/shirt for cleanup because she does not swallow, but still pretty nice.