kitsune89's blog post - Day 9

Well. Today's assignment was to write a Fuck You Letter to five of my self-limiting beliefs. I had difficulty with this for a really good reason actually. So it feels like the most emotionally shallow writing I have done in this process so far. I started killing my self-limiting beliefs early into this journey. Without that step, nothing I have accomplished in the past few years would be possible. It was the foundation I laid that has allowed me to stand up & fight for myself & love myself. So while this is strongly worded, it felt almost xxxxxx to write it. Sure I still have a couple of truly self-limiting doubts. I'm not perfect...but I really had to list a few that I've already buried. No skipping assignments for this girl though! Now it's off to bed with a good book for me!

Fuck you to the belief that I am a cold bitch incapable of love for isolating me further.

Fuck you to the belief that I am unworthy somehow for allowing me to settle for less.

Fuck you to the belief I deserved the things that were done to me for causing me to chase more "punishment".

Fuck you to the belief that I am incapable of practicing self discipline for trapping me in ruts and bad patterns.

Fuck you to the belief I don't like myself for making it so damn hard to remember who I was before I listened to you.

Fuck you to the belief I am a cold bitch, I was born with an incredible capacity for love and empathy.

Fuck you to the belief that I am in any way unworthy, I was born a multifaceted warrior with a purpose too great for you to stop.

Fuck you to the belief I deserved that shit, I was born with too much resilience and intelligence to fall for your trap any longer!

Fuck you to the idea I am undisciplined, I was born into a life that demanded independence from too tender an age. My messy house does not mean I am not busting my ass where it matters.

Fuck you to the belief I don't like myself, I was born with the ability to see true beauty. And I am fucking beautiful inside and out. I cherish my whole Self.