kitsune89's blog post - Day 6

Damn. Today had me digging deep. Seems like we're really getting down into it now. I had no idea how badly I needed to address this. Today's assignment was addressing our Inner Critic. Specifically to ask it the following three questions & answer them. The first one really opened up a truth that should have been obvious but I had never considered. Looking at it in this light has changed a lot for me. My Inner Critic has always been loud & I never considered where it was really coming from.

1. What does the voice of your Inner Critic Represent?
The scared little girl who only knows how to protect through bullying. She's been traumatized and only understands hurt. How to hurt herself. How to stand up for others that are hurt by hurting their attacker. She doesn't understand that pain only creates more pain because she is trapped in her trauma.

2. What are the loudest self-criticisms in your life right now?
That my steps are too small & too slow. That I won't be able to foster healthy relationships. That I am lazy & selfish.

3. How can I create a healthier, more empowering friendship with my Inner Critic?
Through nurturing. By growing the natural gifts that were stifled by her trauma. By practicing a more peaceful and loving mind space. By giving myself space to take chance and make mistakes.