Well.. my kidlet turns 18 this year.. Yay.. ha.. I definitely have some empty nest feelings.. But we have been actively planning for this, for the past 7 years.

I am still disabled and unable to make more than what the government kindly gives me each month.. I lose a lot of money each month due to not having a dependent anymore.. so.. I am having to give up my apartment..

The housing crisis all over the place makes it hard to find another apartment.. plus.. no one else will rent to me when they have other people, who make loads more money than I..

So.. I seem to get my long ago wish.. and I'm moving into a tiny home.. which is also a panel van.. ha..

I will be spending time converting it into a nice camper home.. I will be in it until at least next October. I do have access to my dad's garage.. so I can pull the van in there when it is too cold for my furnace.

I plan to build the interior all my self.. should be fun! I have a dead line for next May.. I want to get a seasonal camp site at my favorite campground. It should be super fun.. it is close enough to the city I live in so I can still be close to friends and family.. plus I would invite everyone to come for free camping.

My son is going to his step mother's house.. she has loads of room and would love to spend time with him.. I am grateful for her still stepping up even after her and my son's dad split up.

So.. life is going to be drastically different in just under three months. I am both excited and terrified. Ha. I am told this is normal feelings for such a lifestyle change.

I plan to do way more exercising as I will be so bored being in the van all day.. there is a lot of KM's (miles) of city pathways that I have a goal to walk on every inch of them.. I also have a big zoo.. and some other touristy places that I would not mind spending the next year, exploring.

It has been years since I took any photos of myself.. I did get a lot bigger so me not wanting to share that.. seems to be part of the reason why I stayed away so long..

Other reasons have to do with my mindset.. I was overwhelmed by the selfish men who would ask me to talk dirty to them.. and would stop talking to me as soon as they were able to jerk off.. I don't dirty talk.. but I am very open with my answers.. some.men can ask questions and get off by my answers.. which is fine with me.. except they always leave right after.. no after care at all.. such a shame! Made me feel bad!

Another reason was, COVID was traumatizing for me.. I was too scared and retreated into myself.. I feel absolutely horrible for all the friends I left.. I should have at least let you all know I was going.. The problem with that was it was not at the time intentional.. I just left.. and then as the days went by.. I got more and more anxious.. I didn't want to burden anyone with my fears.. it got easier to be away.. Once again.. I apologize to anyone and everyone who I worried by being away. Hugs!!!

So.. Why I came back now is.. I am going to need some companions for this next adventure.. This community has always been a place of ego bosting for me.. and there are so many of you who I can chat with. I am wanting to build up my village.. people who can help me pass the time.. People who are not mean and cruel.. People who make me feel like I matter. That is here at NN!

Things have changed for sure.. but the bones of the site are still alive and kicking..

I thank you for your time and I send you about a million hugs!

I am wondering how many people I used to chat with, are still around..

With status as slow as it is now.. I wonder if it can get back to what it was, when it was hopping..

I look forward to finding you all again.. Thanks for the warm welcome so far!

Hugs!!!

This button seems to be one of my most used tabs.. sucks when you see who has chosen to delete you.. some hurt your feelings.. and some you think.. I was friends with you?? I am sure that it means nothing.. but dang those hurt feelings.. it is a porn site after all.. :/

Sending hugs to one and all of you!

Goodbye friends that have gone away, I wish you well!

W

I hope you all have been doing well!

I have been having some fibromyalgia and socialization issues lately.. My communication skills are taking a hit the most and I am having a hard time being with others.. I am having a hard time with simple things, like this blog.. ha..

I cant come up with what to say.. and my mojo is still working its way back.. I took a set of pics a couple of weeks ago.. edited a few.. and left the rest.. I keep coming up with ideas.. but not like before.. and creating the captions for the pics.. used to be so easy for me.. now.. it is a struggle to come up with one that does the pic some justice.. I am working on some of those past blog challenges.. I have always loved those!!

I just wanted to share so you all know why I have not come around much..

I am sending out about a million massive hugs to all who want and need em...

HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wendy had a quiet summer.. lots of time with her almost teenage son.. And lots of medical visits.. Wendy is now able to say she has been officially diagnosed with Fibromyalgia.. She is also suffering from a few other ailments.. The medical professionals believe I am severely handicapped..

The main change in me is my communication with others.. I have been a hermit more and more lately.. I am unable to handle excitement in any form.. and nope not talking sexually.. haha.. I am talking about anything in your everyday life.. If I liked Christmas.. and would get excited for the day.. I would be ill for a while over that.. If any chaos happens around me.. I am ill for a few days.. and it does not even need to be my chaos.. Makes it hard to be a friend.. or at least the type of friend I used to be.. The friend I know how to be.. The one who helps you with your relationship issues.. and not just spouse.. I was great at showing people both sides of what others might be thinking.. Now.. I cant handle almost everything.. This disease seems to be taking a toll on me.. I am told it wont get worse.. but I am finding that hard to believe now.. it seems like I might be still finding the bottom of it.. Anyway.. My communication seems to be the most affected.. I tend to see words that are not actually written.. and I also lose words that are.. Sometimes entire sentences..

I am still not dating.. and oh my goodness.. it has been the change I have needed!! I LOVE that I am not looking after a man anymore.. Everyone around me, including my Dr.. thinks I should want to date again in the future.. oh my.. I sure hope not.. I was too good of a girlfriend.. and now.. I cant imagine doing those things again for a man.. And I have never been a fan of tacos over sausage.. so there wont be any seeing if the other team wants a pinch hitter.. (insert winking yellow dude(emoji) here)

I still want to write my book... and I work on it when I can.. it is hard to go back into the times of your life.. when heartache was raw.. and rampant.. Especially with the new progression of my Mr Fibro. Yay goals!

I hope you all have had a great summer!! I cant wait to catch up with you all ... and on all the Blog photo challenges I have missed!!

Sending you some Alberta Hugs!!

HUGS!

out to you all..

Hope your day and week is amazingtastic!