TNBuilder's blog post - I am depressed

Friday, August 28, 2015, 4:50:49 AM

I am at the point where I just really want to put an end to the marriage. I have to admit that I am miserable. The Wife has upset my oldest daughter to the point where she will not speak to me and is unwilling to apologize. I could give a shit if I ever fuck The Ex again no matter how much I enjoy it. Sex with The Wife seems so strained, like she is trying to prove herself. I am aware that I brought some of this on myself but do not take all of the responsibility since if The Wife had not shut me out nothing would have happened with The Ex.
Got home tonight and was worn out from what was basically a 12 hour day (much of it working with The Ex), Showered and fell asleep on the sofa. The Wife woke me up to go to bed and I cannot sleep so here I am blogging my thoughts in the only place where I can put my true private thoughts down. I have to admit that I do think about ending my life, but I would not do that because I love my kids too much and I know that at least part of that is due to the meds that I am on from the seizures. so no real worries about me doing something stupid. I am glad that this place (NN) exists as a venue for me to 'record' my thoughts and get them out. I have a super busy weekend coming up again with the food truck, so at least I will be making money.
Oh, to backtrack a bit, after hinting that we would be having sex earlier this week, The Wife managed to completely avoid any intimacy despite my giving her a foot massage and lots of cuddling. Tonight she sees me obviously depressed and stressed and simply gives me a kiss on the arm and says good night. Sort of feels like a kick in the balls.

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lovitt on 28-Aug-15 6:11:32

Hang in there, it does look better in the morning. -After coffee and alone away from the misery.

silkypantees on 28-Aug-15 10:49:49

I agree hang in there !. My wife shut down sex over 20 yrs ago and believe me I tried everything but she just wouldn't break. But I did find out when I use to go to my RV for wkend she was using her vibrator alone cause I would see it moved in the stand and that turned me on DAMMMM. cause she used it when we use to fuck and she loved that thing. Now you must focus on your life don't mess it up. Sometimes women just don't want to have sex anymore during the change I have t/t a lot of guy who have same problem, why you think were all together here on a sex site cool huh !. Hell I even told diane to go out and fuck someone All I got was "YOUR SICK" yup I guess. My wife would not go to the Dr for any midlife pills. I know it isn't me.So anyway I know what your going through we all do were here just ask brother !

dammitcalender on 31-Aug-15 21:58:21

Slow down; relax; think. All people look out for their own self interest all the time. That's exactly what you're doing!