So tomorrow (well, later today) I'm travelling to a wedding. The journey involves a bus ride from home to a railway station. Then a train to another station. Then another train to another station. Then another train to another station. Then one last train to the last station.
It's the kind of journey that would give anybody agita (lil nod to the Sopranos...) but I'm already feeling anxiety about the anxiety it will cause!
Apparently feeling anxiety about anxiety is fairly common. But bloody hell! I've realised tonight it's a major part of my anxiety on the late shift at work. I'm feeling anxious about the anxiety before I've even left the house!
It's a wedding. It should be a fun occasion! I mean, apart from the fact it's already cost me over 300 quid... 😬 But I just can't shake it!
I vaguely remember a time when I was almost fearless. I'd jump into any social occasion or situation without a moment's thought. But just like I get wobbly on a set of steps at work now, somehow age brings with it certain insecurities.
To quote the Australian comedian Jim Jefferies, "I'm on antidepressants, but I drink, so I'm not on antidepressants..." But I am taking my meds with me.
There's no real reason for saying all this other than, the advice on one website was "share your concerns with an unbiased party". So, guess what - you're all my unbiased party! 😂
Anyway, it's unlikely I'll take any pics while I'm there but you never know... |