I think as i write this we are close to 30hrs of non stop rain, never stopped me from heading to the beach this morning, only thing was, never took one picture, but I did have a very nice doughnut. But i had a very nice time.

I will see in the morning, what the weather is like before heading anywhere, I fancy going and seeing, if there is many coastal plants in flower, not really something, I have done before, weather is better looking better on Saturday, but I have that day sorted.

I learned where I went wrong before and will put that right the next time. Simple really,, you can't do that in manual, it came to me , in one of those moments, like you can not use the flash on electric shutter, but apart from the camera stuff, I learned a whole lot more today.

I cleaned out my sock drawer today, took 22 pairs out and put them in another container, that contains, yes, even more socks, will replace these socks with a few more pairs, yes I will, I do have a problem, but explaining it, gave someone a laugh, you have to be able to laugh at yourself.


Some lovely colour in the garden. will be like this for months now, but I will still plant more plants. looks good and gives me nice subjects to view and see, what, I can get.

Been learning a lot the last few days. One thing since my stroke I find harder is to store new information, once it was see it once and it was there forever, now It kind of gets lost somewhere. Frustrating but living and adapting with it.

I left work on Monday night and for the first time in donkey years, I felt relief , I have looked forward to these 2 weeks holiday more, than any holiday in forever. Not even sure, why I was like that and for once, no self thinking about it.

I usually take a few days to go into holiday mode, but not this time.

I went to the coast yesterday morning, each of these micro adventures taking the new camera, showing it the places, that mean so much too me, one thing I have noticed, I never feel lonely in these moments. But I seldom feel lonely anymore, plus point there.

I sat on a log, driftwood on the beach, this one has been here for ages, to be told, I was sitting in someone's exact spot, that she sits on, then was told, to just scoot along a little lol.
She asked me, why I sat there and told her, it is the little dip, it is just right, she said, it was created by all the times she sat there, which was 4 times a week, same time as well or near enough it.

In the end, we sat for close to 2hrs, ended with her taking a selfie of us, will give her daughters something talk about, she showed me her message with it,, met a very interesting man.

In the afternoon, I watched the cycling, tried to get a picture of a bee in the garden for world bee day, failed, as such,but decided I need too plant more plants for them as I only saw 4, I put up a few fence posts for hanging baskets to go on.

Finished the day going through all the pictures I had taken, over 600, this camera can take 40 pictures in a second, I was playing with that on some birds, not sure I will use that again much, but it has its uses.


From a log. Life is a funny old thing, you just never know, where it is going to lead.

Woke yesterday morning, just before 4am, looked out the window and saw fog, mad dash to get the new camera ready, through a few lenses into a bag and out the door.

I was only going out for hour, it turned into 4hrs, it was the start of another learning curve, for all most of the buttons are the same new tech is different from 10yr old, but I love to learn, each day, I learn something, it might never be needed again, but it is stored on memory bank.

Walking by a house, someone was clearly having a good start to her day. The noise drifting through the open window. Not as noisy as Julie was, but up their. I just smiled as I walked on, thinking of Julie and how once, we got asked to quieten down as we were keeping the rooms around us from sleeping and Julie laughing her head of at that, in the morning, we got asked by the manager never to use there hotel again.

The sexual adventures we had to keep my blogs in words for years. She just loved to have fun, we both did, one thing there was never any arguments about. We never really argued a lot, she just had her little incidents and I gave her time to cool off. You got to learn how long it would take.

IN the fields as Julie drifts from my mind, woken from the thoughts, by a Curlew, its call drifting througn the fog, standing listening, enjoying.

I stood on my road, tradition, is that is where first adventures with new camera gear starts and this is going to be a fantastic one, one that is years long, one that will teach me things and let me see things. One that will make the bad days just feel better and the best of all, when you looking through that viewfinder , that time of all is forgotten, but the scene before you. This is what photography is for me, getting a picture is second, maybe even third.

I started to make new memories yesterday.


This is the first picture from the camera, first click of the shutter, first new memory and the start of one great adventure, with a lot of ideas.

The long drawn out saga of getting a new camera is over. Important decisions take time for me, I am in a fortunate position in that I could have bought any camera I wanted It was always going to be a Canon and when I opened the box and held her for the first time, it was just right, that was my biggest worry. The difference in weight is noticeable

In the end, I went for the Canon R6 Markii , for me it just ticks what I do. I looked at the R5 and maybe that will be my retirement gift to me in a few years. The R3 and R7 especially the R7, for wildlife it might have been the better way to go, but I am an all rounder.

I charged the battery up last night, will set it all up today and if time permits, first pictures will be taken.

What next is the choice of buying my first RF lens , now I will not bore you all with that one..

Tuesday, I got the last injection and they seem happy with the progress, I have to see a specialist in a few weeks and get some tests done and see from there. I know I have seen a big difference.

to keep pollen from possibly getting into my eye, I wore an eye patch, then promptly lost it in the woods a day later.

I had a nice win on the lottery, like always when the amount is over £100, I give 10% to charity, mainly to dog charities and two got half of my 10% this time. That goes back to my gambling days, when, I started to do this, when I am not here my fortune goes to them as well, having no one else to leave anything too.

Looking outside, it looks like rain might be heading this way, after a week of nice weather, yesterday was maybe as high as 23C, warm for us. I worked most of the day in it and looking back at the end of the day and seeing results.

I missed the Aurora on Friday night, had burnt my body out, lifted and relayed a load of slabs and a lesson learned. I have been lucky enough to have seen it 3 times. First time, me and Julie was holidaying far up north and remember her saying that sky is weird, next minute we were out there both amazed at what we were seeing, Julie got so turned on by it and well you can guess what happened next.

I got asked recently if I loved her and as the years have passed, I see love just comes in many forms and for all she made my life hell, yes, there was love, I use to try and tell myself that I never was in love with her, I see it for what it was, a failed attempt at masking the pain, once I accepted, strangely it made things clearer.

You have to make peace with yourself.

So 5 days to work till holidays, 4 this week and Monday the next. I am really looking forward to it.


Something a little different, this week, the movement of the camera is intentional , to give a kind of painterly picture, like I have said before, I wish I could draw and paint a picture, but useless, is not even close, so an attempt with the camera.

Our weather has been good the last few days, many projects done, like lifting and relaying over 70 slabs, but it does look better, but on the down side, when I woke each morning, pain every where, but I wake every morning and embrace the day, thanking that I can just do what I do, it takes longer, but it has been part of the adapting and I no longer get frustrated about this.

I got a few tomato plants the other day, first time in a number of years, I have grown any, I wish I could eat them, said that before many times and yes once again, I will try, can never understand, why I can eat tomato in something that is cooked with them, but a fresh one, straight off the plant, the best you can get and nope it is a no go.

OK this is longer than I meant to write, back with the usual Sunday.


The damselflies are back around and I got too get downlow and enjoy this Large Red, mother nature does give me, the best of things to see, well worth kneeling on nettles and getting many stings.

I was once again the other week, if one of my pictures could get used for an advert type thing and once again all, that was to be given was a credit for the image and once again, I said no. If something is going to be used commercially , I want paid for it. That is my rule. To many people give it away for free. But each to there own.

I will be the keeper of some new treasure this week or next, depending on delivery. The time of wait is over. Old faithful will not be retired, far from it. She is too much part of me and well she have given me more, than you can imagine. So many memories and so many more to make.

I only work tomorrow, injection on Tuesday, one thing I have to watch for , is getting pollen in my eye, hard thing to do, at this time of year, when so much is about, thought of buying an eyepatch to put over my eye when out, this is hopefully my last one.

I then work a week and then 2 weeks off, hopefully a lot of nice weather, never thought I would say such things.

I spent a bit of time at the coast on Friday morning, it was really good and then in the afternoon, I was where I call the nature reserve, I am not supposed to be in there , but when you chase the butterflies, well what can I say I venture forth.


The chase was worthwhile, Orange Tip butterfly, really fresh looking. I always think we are heading closer to summer, when they appear. Once I just had the dream to get an image of one, now I still just look and marvel of them,

In a little over a week, my last macular injection maybe. Has it made a difference. It has, on the eye chart, I can see two extra lines now.

It has helped me no ends, with the photography, I have been leaning more towards the macro type shots, or close ups, I love my landscapes but, I am changing.

I have been taken a lot of flower pictures, some in the garden, more in the woods. It is slow process of photography, sometimes, you have nothing to really show from it, but that never bothers me, I only ever try for one keeper, but I am usually lucky in getting a few.

I sometimes wish, I had taken an interest when I was younger, but it was just not the time, so many other things and with me, it all about time management. I do a thing 100% or not at all.

So the other week, got a flash for the camera and with the diffuser I got, into the greenhouse, I had seen some tiny spiders. So manual focusing on them and taking a few pictures, learning and then back out the next 2 nights as well, each time improving.

So from that first night, I have a blog picture.


I see it, as a starting point, from this, I have had a lot of smiles. I have have that feeling, that contentment , that I find with a camera.

I walked this evening, had been hoping for a bit of nice late evening sunshine, but been an overcast day, but my little woods, were a riot of colour with the Bluebells and then I found a patch of wild garlic, now I must have walked by it before, but for all I am always looking, sometimes, not enough. It was in a nice little spot for a seat and to just look around me and just enjoy the night.

I really just did pop in to post the picture, I was going to last weekend.


I have one Tulip in the garden, this year I think 11 blooms are on it, spent a hour on Sunday morning just seeing, what I could see, I will shoot a lot of flowers this next while, I am changing, this is part of who I am.

Been around a month, since I have been here. Like everything else, time flies by, close to the first 4 months of the year has gone by. When you are young, you think you have all the time in the world, then you get old and you are spending more time looking back some days wondering how you managed to get so much done everyday.

Just like the Doctor's all warned, your body is going to break down. But stubborn me will just keeps fighting.

I have taken plenty of pictures recently, been posting them on Flickr, no grand landscape shots, mostly using macro gear. bought some new gear as well, not the camera yet, but a flash and a diffuser. The diffuser came from USA, ordered one a Saturday and here on a Tuesday, used it a few times, mostly in the greenhouse shooting spiders and once, one early morning shooting cherry blossom.

I have already decided to buy another camera, before I have even got this one. It will be for my 60th birthday next year.

I truly think that to move on in life, you have to find peace within yourself first and foremost and I like to think, that is exactly where I am, staying away from here was just part of my therapy programme for me.

I am closer to death than the time, I have lived, but I will live it and enjoy every last second, that I can.

I was never angry with the world, I was angry with me.

You really have to look with in, before you can look out.

Till the next time, Smile.