Went to the hospital and I have problems with my left eye, I am now waiting to get 5 injections in this over 5 months, all done by injecting into the white part of my eyeball, but if it helps. That is all that matters to me.

I have tomorrow off, I really might try and head to the coast, supposed to be a bit windy, might be just what I need. I know by all the picture editing, that I am getting called there, company would be really nice, but will be me , myself and I.


Yes stuck in the past again, but these places, tell my story, each picture is a memory and what is the memory of this visit, well a spaniel stole my cheese and jam sandwich, not the first time, \I have lost food to a dog, once to a seagull, probably will happen again.

I no longer have my Friday night Scrabble games, been a number of weeks now, I was just getting used once again, one overheard conversation, when in the local shop and when she saw me, I just smiled. No words exchanged, no drama. When I was walking that day, I done my usual, take the time of a walk, to process it, but it never even took half of my walk to do so, this time, funny even as I write this all those weeks later, all I can think is, glad I never had anything sexual with her, crazy but true.

So Friday nights are back to being picture editing night, go through all the old pictures and re process them, look at some and think,, you really did not have a clue, then, but now, with a few things learned, I like the changes I make, most have been coastal images, for the last month or so, turned a few into black and white.

I had took some pictures of me, it was more to play about with the editing, all black and white, but once I was done deleted them all, say all was only 5, bicep shots, shot of my hand and my calves, all against a black cloth, but once, I buy a new flash, might try some more.

I have the hospital on Tuesday, see the eye doctor and yes, I am scared.


I find a picture like this so calming, the storm in the sea , has the opposite effect on me. I hope to be able to just sit and watch a few over the winter, but if not, well, I might have one or two in the back catalogues ..

Have a great week everyone.

Last night was one, off those night's where sleep was not really found, my mind was just too active, so many questions, seem to be coming up and memories too, for once, I never just went a walk, made a cup of tea and fired up the desktop, edited a picture or two and then from one picture, I seen how many different ones, I could make from it, I really enjoyed that,

My village war memorial is something, that I have taken pictures off, but always been unhappy with them, Had nice skies and the like, but the problem is, that there are 3 road signs at it, but this morning, took it into Photoshop, used the new AI software and poof, they were gone, now I zoomed in and it really is magic, what it done, no traces at all , perfect blend, now, I am going to do a project, chasing a picture, that might never happen, but back to chasing the impossible again maybe ..

Now what to do, for the rest of the day, maybe a little retail therapy is called for, I need a new winter jacket, that will fit me, I need to order some dahlias, for next year, I will fit in a walk, if the rain goes off, i live the best of lives.


I love this place, it gave me love, those benches to the side of the old castle are magical, to just sit upon them, seems to take the pressure of the world away, next week, m arse will be parked on them, will be the first time in 6 years, but my old friend will welcome me, like no other place and I will enjoy the pleasure of staring out too sea.

Another sunset from the scenic Ayrshire coast. On the beach beside Turnberry Golf course shooting toward Turnberry Lighthouse with Ailsa Craig in the distance, with the sun setting over it, beautiful clouds that just never really lit up, nearly shots, as I call them, but still a really nice evening.

I was sitting last night, looking at pictures, just really started playing around, what you can do in Lightroom now adays is crazy, once, you might have had to go into Photoshop, for this, these programmes are all getting so much cleverer all the times now.

My only real rule when I edit a picture is, I will not add anything to it, no sky replacements or anything like that, but yes, I will remove things. I mostly do this , for my own amusement, to just see and probably 99% of what I have posted I never touch, I have been known, to lift rubbish from a scene, before taking picture, but sometimes, you miss something, I use to kick myself, when It was something, I could not do.

I decided , as off, today, when I post to Flickr, no more adding to groups for a long time, fell back into the trap of always checking to see, what views, I have been getting, once upon a time, It either made me happy or wonder what I had done wrong, but now, I just see a number, it does not effect me one way or another now.

I decided on a new hobby, for next summer, having a go at growing Dahlias, not my usual bedding ones, but the large showy ones, will give me something nice to take pictures off. I feel as if, I need something for the dark evenings, need to think about that one.

I got my appointment for the hospital 3rd October, which is great, for all anything with my eyes is serious, my thinking is, that it can not be too bad, as they would have had me in, a lot quicker than this.

Our weather has been rather nice this week, high of around 27C which is still extreme for us, but funny thing is, I cope with it well, once if it was above 20C, i never really liked it, but it is usually for one or two days at the most, by the end of this week, it is to be down to a high of 14C Autumn weather and a low of 5C, nice morning cycling weather.

I get frustrated at times, but learning and adapting is what it is about. I have probably trained all my life for these times, my brain was always great at problem solving, seeing a simple solution , when I had a problem at work, now, I need to do this more and more in my own daily life, never really seen it, as clear as this till the other day. I love a good eureka moment.

I still can do and I still will do. Maybe my new thinking mantra.

I am a focused and driven person, for the most part,, but like anyone, can lose it.

I spend more and more time in my garden and will spend even more, once I could easily spend from dawn to dusk in it. I am trying to find that focus again, seeing something grow from the tiniest of seeds, to a flower in bloom or something to eat, is one of natures true joys, now of I only liked eating vegetables, that would be even better.


Picture just says it all. Nice little cup of tea, beside, a plant, that I grew from a cutting.

I am going to take a break from blogging, Blogging has always been my main way of inter action on here, I got another health worry to add too the rest on Friday, a routine eye test has led me, waiting now, to go too the hospital, fluid behind my eyeball. now that does truly scares me and worries me, getting over the Stroke never gave me the worry, that I have now.

I do truly feel alone on this one, having no one,that I can really open up to, is not something that really bothers me, most of the time, but to have someone, to just give me a hug or, just too hold my hand, would be really great just now.

Just feeling sorry for myself I guess.

Many thanks everyone ..

I never got my camera fix so far this weekend, not been very well and not in the mood to wander, kept myself busy in the garden.

I have the day off on Thursday, so got a long weekend as such, already checked tides and nice low tides, around sunset, maybe a coastal visit.

I had a blind date with someone called Sally, it went well and I did end up sleeping with her, funny how when I was young, I never ever had dreams like this, but in the last few months, this is the fifth or sixth time, one was even with someone from on here, that I have never even spoken too, apart from a PM, yes, I am going more nuts, that, I have always been.

In the past my dreams have been premonitions , where a similar thing has happened in real life, yes, I am truly bonkers.

Back to cycling to work in the dark, now, which does not actually bother me, was great seeing the early morning world, for these few months of daylight, I have a feeling we might see, a bit of more wintery weather this year, which in a lot of ways, I am looking forward too, but with our weather, might be the total opposite


Now this Collie had as much fun at the beach as I had, now if I had ever gotten another dog, would have been a very good chance, it would have been a similar type of collie.


Scotland and Heather go hand in hand, at this time of the year, this little bit is on , a nice walk from home away, old pit site, where very little covered it now, it is coming alive, with all the Birch trees and the Heather is covering it, as well from one tiny patch, to it looking better and better each year, it is growing like a weed, but a very very pretty weed.

Well waffling done, a 7 out of 10 week.

I am back to work tomorrow and am happy about that, I must be the only person that as a holiday goes on, the more, I want to get back, well when I am single that is, when I have a woman in my life, spending time, with them, is so different for me.

Part of the reason , why I am going to change my holidays about.

The interest's I have can be done any day of the week, that is for sure, if someone does come along into my life, that will change , but for now, that is my plan.

Going forward from now, will only be doing one blog a week, most of the time. Just like, I cut back everywhere else, cutting back the time, I spend on here.

My famous friend from across the pond, is coming to the UK and we are going to meet up, she is not really in the spotlight now, so does not to hide lol, not seen her in person for a long time, we spoke just after my Stroke last year and was one of a few that actually did keep a check on me.

Being away from taking sunset images at the coast for so long, I kind of lost how too, need to re focus and just pay a little bit more time in. which I hope to do, I did get a nice black and white and a collie dog in the water, one or two more and I do have a few from my phone and got one for now to use on this blog, well maybe 2.

My Scrabble playing friend is thinking of getting a dog, she asked if, I would walk it for her sometimes, I said yes, as long as it was a sensible dog, thankfully it will be, looking at either a Jack Russel Terrier or a Kerry Blue Terrier. I like both breeds, but like I said to her, I think she would be better with the Jack Russel.

She reminded me, that I still had a forfeit to pay, as I lost the last game of Scabble we played, that was last year, she had to remind me, what I had promised, when she told me, She was to get anything she wanted, I remembered . So lunch on Friday it is.

We still have not played any new games in person, just online, was supposed to, but she went to see Barbie, instead with her friend , which was perfectly ok with me,

Her friend thinks, we are playing more than Scrabble lol she does not help, when she told her, that we have slept together a few times, but forgot to add, that actually doing more than just sleeping was 40 odd years ago, only once since then we shared a bed different thing,

We have hugged, she says, that my hugs are the best in the world, medicinal hugs she calls them, but I am the only man she has hugged in over 30yrs.

She feels for me, as I feel for her.

Ok, now that went of track..


Both taken with my IPhone 8, This one was from where I had the Canon set up, sun had went down, but as you see, heavy cloud above the Isle of Arran, snuffed out anything dramatic.

I took this, as I was walking back along the shore, maybe, I should have just stayed in this area and taken pictures with the Canon here, but you get an idea sometimes, a picture, you have thought about in your head and try that.

So when the new IPhone comes out, my phone is getting replaced, whether with the 15 or more likely a 14, will be interesting to see, what can be taken with more modern technology in a phone now.

Blogging is dead, when I sat at the coast, last night, waiting for the sun to set, I came to that conclusion. Well my style of blogging that is, can not speak for other's, but for me, it is. I have seen it coming for a little while and for all, you want to stay motivated, sometimes no matter what, It is just not working for you.

I keep saying I believe in signs and when I have looked this week, no comments and could count on one had the views for each blog, not that I ever expect any , I see it more, as what I am doing is not right, my blogs are in a rut, that is what I see. but not really got an answer on how to change that.

6 years ago today, my world got seriously rocked, from it being the happiest, I have ever been too, when I did question whether I wanted to live, but I love life to much and would never do that to anyone, let along someone, that I loved so very much. It took me till late last year to build myself back up, now I just drift along, like, I always have done.

So time for a change, change one, will be when I take my holidays in the future, had the same weeks off for decades, but I look back at them now and just ask why, I did one year take just long weekends off and you know, that was kind of nice, now that I only work 4 days a week, adding another 2 days, gives me 5 days off. that would really work for me now.

Change two, not planning to change my camera, till the day, it no longer works, I love that Canon 5D Markiii, just now it does all I need, people go on about weight and hips say, that I do need to watch that and I know, I carry to much gear at time and need to alter that.

Change 3. It's time to learn and so much of that I need to re-learn.

Change 4 These blogs. I am not leaving NN, I still have over 1000 days of premium left, not going to throw that away, did that when I shut down my old account and then started a new one next day or something like that.

Small steps to start.